ahh the other night, i had the most resplendant dream!
in fact, it made me quite happy for several days, as odd as that may seem.
i had a dream that i was travelling into the desert with some people..
there was some sort of outdoor natural amphitheatre, where we encountered
a lost tribe of Korean desert dwellers! they lived in vast numbers underground
in caves, like the Fremen. i hesitantly spoke some Korean to them and they
immediately accepted and welcomed me as a sister. so i beamed.
if you have any ideas of possible meanings in the dream, give a yell.

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as it is, i have come to accept the new strangeness of my reality back in NY/NJ.
i still work at a bookshop on 3rd avenue. i rummage through the foreign film section at the
Brooklyn Library for hidden gems. i hike along the Palisades, staring at the glimmering Hudson.
to ground myself, i reread the entire Invisibles series for further moments of clarity.
i noticed something interesting about the physical fields of NYC.
from a distance.. the city looks immaculately magical! it glitters like Lite-Brite.
however, when i get into the city and go down the old roads.. everything seems tired.
trying to make sense of such things..

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so i sit here, listening to the sonorous sounds of a tinkling piano..
sipping red wine, and thinking about possibilities and so forth.
hmm yuletide is upon us, not much of a fan of it, for i feel that the essence of it has been
stomped out by the military boots of $anta and his weird little elves.
although i like the holy bits. candles flickering. choral sounds. pine needles.
puffs of condensation from people's mouths. faerie lights. well, these images..
are conjured up in the minds of those in colder climates, of course.
in australia, i saw faerie lights strung on houses in the middle of a sparsely vegetated desert.
they also eat cherries on yule cause it is during summer.

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anyways, had some sad moments the other night, when i told me mum that i will be moving to Oz..
for an undetermined space in Time. an interesting question she brought up was:
are you going just to be with ZKR or for your own sake? or something like that.
existence at this time is a tricky balance, but it really shouldn't be.
if i'm silent long enough, clarity shall manifest, non?

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hmm, so rifled through old cd's that have been collecting dust.
dug out The Cure's 'Pornography'. wooow, suddenly my mind rewinds to me about 6 years ago.
it is so strange. i love it, actually.
following the fading footsteps of the me that reached the me of this very second.
or something like that. i'm lucky to even remember. i know people who don't.
a paper trail of out-of-focus, sometimes over exposed polaroids.

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right, so happy holidays to you.. and if you don't celebrate any..
merry winter to you.

best,
d........*