1:28 A.M EST -- 01.03.03 c.e

it's snowing again....
got stuck on the GW Bridge for over an hour..
then the whirling snow began.. making everything become..
a snow glass paperweight effect.. as i reread 'Cosmic Trigger'..

today had lunch with an ex. it was sorta strange.
seems like we are both different people now.. kinda..
my mind wandered while he spouted Buddhist teachings to me.
the best part was when we walked around and around in the cold..
hot apple cider at one point and then with some degree of relief.. i went to work.

the most splendid part of the day was meeting up with SCL.. whom i attended
college with in Nottingham. last time we met up was when i lived in Greenpoint, Brklyn.
and she gave me the entire collection of the graphic novel series, 'The Preacher'.
this fantastic human teaches literature to a bunch of girls in the east end of London.
it seems that we will meet up once every year or so.

we walked through W.Sq. Park when the misty drizzle began..
and while a solo saxophonist played in the empty fountain in the dark..
it was a very nice thing to hear. sort of poignant.
so we then indulged in amerikan style burritos.. trading stories..
one of my favorite pastimes, indeed.

anyways, hope you passing cyber soldiers had a super chill new years..
for some fun, celebrate again about one month later for Chinese New Year..
this next year will be the year of the Sheep.

my last night of 2002 was spent in an old rambling house in Westchester.
once again, i found myself surrounded by Russians.. a strange phenomenon..
which occurs when i am in N. Amerika. but it is a benevolent thing.
in the back yard of the house was a magnificent bonfire, where sparks spiraled
into the skies, resembling the arms of the Milky Way but in neon glowing red points of light.

another wicked thing was the outdoor hot tub, where we all went au naturale and
slid into the hot waters with absolute bliss, whilst passing around bottles of champagne.

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okay.okay.. in the back of my mind i do have some fears to type out..
but before doing so is this.. i recommend a most beautiful band for you to suss out..
they are Icelandic, classically trained, therefore creating some of the most simplistic..
gorgeous electronic soundscapes. they bring a light smile to my face. they are known as 'Mum'.

alright. i have a twinge of paranoia about the direction the US gov't is leading.
mutually aided destruction.. i am but a little pacifist..drifting along quietly.
so i feel that the US gov't is being a big mad bully.
cornering the enemy projections into desperate measures.
one nation under what again?
and here i end my grievence soliloquey [sp?]

oh, but yeas, my fellow sentients, hope still glimmers unwaveringly deep inside me..
some blame that aspect on youthful idealism, i've got no solutions...
an Israeli traveller whom i encountered by the side of a river in Queensland asked me...
'what is the solution for peace? what do you think? How can it be resolved?'
it is the Gordian Knot of our times.. the ancient knot puzzle which has never been untangled..
whereas Alex the Great decided to chop it in half with his sword.
didn't really work, now did it?
Within the pages of 'Watchmen' by Alan Moore reflects the realities of Now.. even though it was written mid-80's.

well, happy new year.. may we become more evolved, awake, wiser, loving, and funnier.

take care...........

d.